when i go down tonight,
will you stay by my side?
i wanna make you mine.
not sure if that’s alright.
what the hell are you waiting for, tell me to get up off your floor, make it hurt me to my core, don’t wanna see me anymore
isn’t that the way it goes, mess up once you send me home? i just wish that you could know, i’m so scared to be alone.
paint the picture once or twice, or a thousand times.
always late to the second try, or the compromise.
i hate that i’m admitting it, but i’m heartbroken.
knowing that i finished last before the beginning.
i’m affected now, i feel reckless now.
get ahold of myself before i lash out.
is it me in the wrong? is it really my fault?
i don’t want to be who i am at all
need a change of scenery, it’s so hard for me,
i could ask for a million things and leave empty.
maybe soon you’ll come back for me, but i stopped breathing.
you might stand there and wait but you won’t be grieving.
then you’ll just move on. nothing new to me.
i am constantly being forgotten.
what’s the deal with that? i’m not even that bad.
no one answers me when i try to ask.
you said that you just wanna die, right?
you said that you won’t let me down. yeah, right.
i cannot outsmart myself, i need to start taking back what is mine, i swear that i just might.
i’ll make it on my own. i’ll find it if i roam. my house is not your home. my heart is not your throne.
credits
released April 12, 2019
Music by Green Grass for Miles
Words and vocals by Kicksie
Mixed by Jcruz at Mad Rez Studios
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